emotions over-whelming.
blood boiling.
cant breathe da right way.
intolerable.
i've gotta let it out!
i know wad keeps on repeating.
da arguement of me going to clubbing. that "miss you" msg he sent to some unknown gurl. da amount of frustrations and jealous is totally engulfed upon me. it's been really some time since im being drown in such situations.
at times when i dun wanna go to his place for dinner simply bcos im like some gurl "presenting" myself for free, right at da doorstep. also im not some gurl who goes for "free food". i could still remember him tellin me that his mum asked why am i always meeting her son. doesnt priscilla has friends? well of course i have. hello? im like sacrificing my "friends time" to accompany your precious son. again, I HAVE FRIENDS! CLOSE FRIENDS to b precise. im not some leech who is stucking your son's "blood".
im NOT being mean right here. it's just that, all these thoughts have been bottled in my heart for such a long time that, i cant remember how long have i been thinkin bout them.
grew up in a "(almost) all freedom granted" family, i m quite independent on myself. how do i learn things right? simple. not repeatin the same ones again. i also have this habit of PROVING PEOPLE WRONG. i cant stand da fact that a gurl only have casual greetings with me, can come to a conclusion that no clubbin for me is like killin me. argh! if this was commented by jessica, my bestest friend aka wifie, i would just take that comment and live with it. but NO, it was just some gurl whom i knew for like wad, not even 15minutes, and she could actually judge me by my surface. wad the hell man?
life's been very stable, very, but kinda boring for me. everyday's a routine. a really boring one. im not saying that im sick of meeting terence after his work everyday and then go his place for dinner, but i need some spice. i really miss those days i used to slack at fullerton with jessica or jennifer or even irene, listenin to the sound of the waves, bitching ard and just "rotting" together till we have to chase the last train, in order to go home.
it's as if im in shortage of fresh air. and thus im putting on carbs and fats. argh! this "stress" is killin me. when im bored or lonely, i'll just stuff myself up. and when i put on weight, i'll blame myself for it. this sucks! but im like this. i just dont know how to change this bad mind-set.
anyways, i doubt i'll understand a guy's emotion. here i m typing in all my rantings after a "repeated arguememnt" and he can snore away in his sleep. well, i know that he is tired after workin and studyin during almost all his day, but i remembered wad he told me. he have got no energy to argue anymore. and "bam!" he's knocked out. maybe i should go home. perhaps it's time for me not to stay at his place this often, or rather stay put at home. this way, i can get to do whatever things i wanna do and don't have to bother wad people will think of me, for it's my home. argh!!!
doubt i will b able to get to sleep tonight.
peeved-*
blood boiling.
cant breathe da right way.
intolerable.
i've gotta let it out!
i know wad keeps on repeating.
da arguement of me going to clubbing. that "miss you" msg he sent to some unknown gurl. da amount of frustrations and jealous is totally engulfed upon me. it's been really some time since im being drown in such situations.
at times when i dun wanna go to his place for dinner simply bcos im like some gurl "presenting" myself for free, right at da doorstep. also im not some gurl who goes for "free food". i could still remember him tellin me that his mum asked why am i always meeting her son. doesnt priscilla has friends? well of course i have. hello? im like sacrificing my "friends time" to accompany your precious son. again, I HAVE FRIENDS! CLOSE FRIENDS to b precise. im not some leech who is stucking your son's "blood".
im NOT being mean right here. it's just that, all these thoughts have been bottled in my heart for such a long time that, i cant remember how long have i been thinkin bout them.
grew up in a "(almost) all freedom granted" family, i m quite independent on myself. how do i learn things right? simple. not repeatin the same ones again. i also have this habit of PROVING PEOPLE WRONG. i cant stand da fact that a gurl only have casual greetings with me, can come to a conclusion that no clubbin for me is like killin me. argh! if this was commented by jessica, my bestest friend aka wifie, i would just take that comment and live with it. but NO, it was just some gurl whom i knew for like wad, not even 15minutes, and she could actually judge me by my surface. wad the hell man?
life's been very stable, very, but kinda boring for me. everyday's a routine. a really boring one. im not saying that im sick of meeting terence after his work everyday and then go his place for dinner, but i need some spice. i really miss those days i used to slack at fullerton with jessica or jennifer or even irene, listenin to the sound of the waves, bitching ard and just "rotting" together till we have to chase the last train, in order to go home.
it's as if im in shortage of fresh air. and thus im putting on carbs and fats. argh! this "stress" is killin me. when im bored or lonely, i'll just stuff myself up. and when i put on weight, i'll blame myself for it. this sucks! but im like this. i just dont know how to change this bad mind-set.
anyways, i doubt i'll understand a guy's emotion. here i m typing in all my rantings after a "repeated arguememnt" and he can snore away in his sleep. well, i know that he is tired after workin and studyin during almost all his day, but i remembered wad he told me. he have got no energy to argue anymore. and "bam!" he's knocked out. maybe i should go home. perhaps it's time for me not to stay at his place this often, or rather stay put at home. this way, i can get to do whatever things i wanna do and don't have to bother wad people will think of me, for it's my home. argh!!!
doubt i will b able to get to sleep tonight.
peeved-*
posted by juan at
10:27:00 PM
2 Comments:
hey buddy...let me comment something lar...buddy in a relationship u muz tolerate each other's friends...simply saying "i miss you" doesnt mean really that ur babe got feelings with another girl...for me its common to say that i miss my female friends very much...u know those kind of friendship misses?or u just casually ask him who message him la...well as u say u dun understand why guys only concentrate on one thing...Bingo buddy u hit the right thing!!Guys is very focus...but women are multitasking...and then one more thing you should let his mum know that u are not possesive of him...so what will u do is to out with his friends and also go with your friends with him...don't diam diam then let his mum roll over you...not good lor...well wait 4 my next comments ba...hehehe...your bestest buddy...the one who sails the rough seas....
hmmm... hope everything's fine for you ayes... But sometimes routine can be a rather good thing, ain't it?? Well, i understand in a relationship, one would always wanna whine and throw some tantrums, jus to attract the other's attention and to add some spice.. I believe all will be fine... =)
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