m i in love?

i seriously wonder...

went out with terence for da past few daes.

and i really like his company.

for i feel comfortable and EXTREMELY SAFE with him.

most importantly....

i feel happy!

However......

i still have phobia for relationships...

well...

after my relation with Gavian (my previous ex-guy), i'm really afraid of being ditched or even letting my emotions run wild and be committed. it's not as if im blamin on him (of cos he hav got his reasons for us to go seperate ways...) but it's bcos all my ex-guys ditched me. even those whom i thought will nv ever leave me. indeed i trust too easily. but im still that innocent gurl next door deep down in my conscience, i suppose. eventually, i still want to settle down and have a family, kids, etc. i jus wanna b happy. and i hope me being happy will bring joy to my friends around me.

misunderstood by my dressing and make-up...

usually people thinks that im a wild player when it comes to relationships. but this is untrue. they didnt see wad i done in my past relationships and also in the future one. the wild appearance of me is jus a facade to hide my emotional self. at the same time, to protect my feelings. for i m a gurl who thinks alot. and perhaps a possessive gurlfriend.

right now i just hope that i will not get hurt no more. and i reckoned that i hav choosen the right path...