cried for him. y? cos he's so negative with himself. and i'm hurt by it. today's a freakin sucky day. and i mean freakin. =(

morning. met him at jurong mrt then his face freakin "black". y? he saw her. but her heck care him. she didnt give a damn. he's darn fed up. then see me. face "black". humph. but after that things went on much smoother than b4. however. in da evening, of u can say, late afternoon. a pair of BITCH & BASTARD spoiled our already freakin day. da BSTARD was alrite la. it was da BITCH that was freakin attitude. humph. on da monorail. she was like bitchin non-stop. her mouth is worst than a freakin machine gun. then me and him didnt did anything to her but she (dunno y) said "things" abt me and him. ("._.) fucked up. feel like slappin her. but dun wan la. later contaminate me hand sia. fuck. went she finally alight da monorail. she sounted and wave "bye bye" to us. due to da fact that she had irritated us like hell, he shouted back "fuck you la!" then when da BITCH & BASTARD turned, he continued to yell "chee bye!". darn loud sia. and i think everyone on da monorail was lookin at us. wtf?! >_<"


after that incident. me and him went to clementi wantin to catch a movie. then as "usual" he wan to. . . but i dun wan sia. it's like history is happenin again and i feel as though i'm being used as a toy. i dun like this feelin at all. in fact i HATE it. so i told him "no matter how much i love a guy. his horny-ness and make me forget that love" yup. it's true. but i dun mean that i'm sayin him. i dun mean that i'm sayin i dun love him anymore.

his face become "black" again. and i became darn quiet again. wtf. he said it's not his day. well. it's not MY day either. "~.~

we sort-of had an argument jus now. i dunno wad's his problem man. he jus kept sayin that i'm too good for him. well. then he said he got more than wad he wanted. and he said that i didnt get wad i wan. cos i told him that he isnt da type of guy i would go for. i followed my heart and fell in love with him. but in turn he said i didnt get wad i wan?! well. i can say that i've got wad i wan. and wad i wan and ever yearn for is simply TRUE LOVE. simply a kind of PURE FEELING. not using da brain to "function" but using only da HEART.

to u-noe-who: believe it or not i really love u and treasure and cherish u. pls dun look down on urself. to me. u're one perfect guy. dun doubt it can?